Who I am

So you want to learn about me, huh?
I'm 16 years old. I've been depressed since 2013. Also been wanting to die since 2016.
This is in fact my handwriting.
That's all I'll tell you about me so you can't track me down.
If you want to know anything else about me hit me up on the email link on the main page.
I'll probably add some of the better questions here. Ask away.

If you want to learn more about me, click here

--How did you end up depressed? Well, in 2013 I moved away from my childhood home, and found myself with no friends...
I changed in that time from the bubbly kid that I was into what I am now.
Changing like that with no friends made me depressed.

--Why don't you share much about you? I value my privacy...a lot. I don't like to share much about me because I'd prefer to stay somewhat-anonymous.

--Are you dangerous? It depends on what you qualify as dangerous...I own a few knives, but I'm not actively trying to hurt or kill people.
I do talk a lot about violence and shit like that on here, but I use this website as a way for me to let everything out.
So no, I don't think I'm dangerous.

--Why don't you get help? I appreciate if you're worried about me, however I have several factors against me here.
For one, I know that I will be institutionalized if I ask for help, and I don't want that to happen to me.
Furthermore, I'm worried that getting help will ruin a lot of things for me, such as my friends, this site, school, college, and a myriad of others.
Once I know what'll happen to me, I'll consider it, but for right now, no.

--Why are you so scared? Long story, to be honest. In short, it's a culmination of childhood abuse, being shy,
and overthinking. I've gone through some extremely stressful shit. I'm so scared of everything because I don't know what's going to happen
as a result of said thing happening. There's so many "What If's". I just want concrete answers.

--What the hell is wrong with you? I have no fucking clue.

Paranoid PersonalityVery High
Schizoid PersonalityHigh
Schizotypal PersonalityVery High
Antisocial PersonalityVery High
Borderline PersonalityVery High
Histrionic PersonalityHigh
Narcissistic PersonalityHigh
Avoidant PersonalityVery High
Dependent PersonalityHigh
Obsessive-Compulsive PersonalityVery High

Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Very High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Very High
Level 7 (Violent)Extreme
Level 8 - The Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)High

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"it's weird knowing that you're gonna die. you feel like you're old and that you know everything, so you don't give a shit anymore." -Jessica Barden